college is taking my time

just missed another important occasion, college is not the one to blame... its I who had forgotten significant dates, numbers, and yeah ...... PEOPLE .....

its this gap that is being created by college.... moving me from OTHERS ... i want my life back ...


i know that the trip is hard, and that it's just the beginning.... i hope i won't reach the point of break down ........... no it wont happen... ive made it through much harder situations, felt this soar sting , "what doesnt kill me ... makes me stronger...." in that i shall believe standing in the face of the tornado... up the river stream ....

thanks for believing in me .... and reminding me of my purple scarf....

be "you"

Why are you spending the prime of your life longing for the acceptance of others??
Are you willing to waste your life trying to fit into one frame or another seeking approval!!
Haven’t you ever wondered why it is that despite the great organization of the world, nature has no fixed form!
The moon has different faces, and the human’s perception of it, values and devalues it by adding to its faces.
Identity is not static, it is changeable, adaptable.
So instead of trying to be what “they” want, just be “you” and instead of seeking the unattainable acceptance of all, demand respect. For respect is what counts not acceptance.

another stressful night, so another poem

Dear Baby,

Every time I see you, i can never know,
How I feel so just read below

I hate you cuz you make me shout,
I hate you cuz you make me doubt

You take away my evening sleep,
Yet you say your love is deep

You care so much, yet sometimes you don’t
I just cant figure wat the hell u want

You make me angry, yet you are chilling
Still you wonder, why is this depressing??

I know that you love me, and that I suck
In so many ways, but that’s ur luck

What can I say? this world aint fair
So deal with it, and go with my flair

Try to embrace me, not get pissed at me
I am not that bad, or why would u love me?

Are you the one, is not the dilemma
It’s that for you, I would kill Emma

I cant predict what will I do
If you leave me here, I wont get through

For now my anger is kinda of less,
But my frustration, is still a stress

I sometimes scream, and I always bicker,
But how I feel is as dazzling as glitter

I sometimes doubt, and I always talk
But how I feel is a booming stock

I hope you know how I love to shout
I hope you know how I enjoy to doubt

Next time I see you, I will try to know
But it will help, if ur not like SNOW

depression has reached the limits ....

ألزمت نفسك شيئا ليس يلزمها* أن لا يواريهم أرض ولا علم

totally scattered, tears filling my eye's, and no one to share.
its always been me ... im always the man ... tasks are infinite, and no one to share.
ive been always helpful ... putting others before me.. the word "NO" ive forgotten... it destroyed my self-esteem, and no one to share.

im clueless, im helpless.... and who i seek for help, needs me, and no one to share.
reached passion... reached fame ... that all gave me shame ... what ever i do ... it always returns on me, and no one to share.
been broken, been stabbed ... been frozen, been hanged, my heart just fainted... my brain just jammed, and no one to share.

its times of pressure that u try to hide, its when everyone else.. on you relied ...
its times when your emotions take over your mind .. its when you cant take it, nor can you deny ..
ur betraying yourself here .. your hurting your soul ..
how ironic it is when self-centered is defending team work ..

while im honored , im successful ... that doesn’t go with me ... its always when success comes ..... something awful happens to me, and no one to share.

محضتني النصح لكن لست اسمعه* ان المحب عن العذل في صمم

this no one whose hidden... is someone in me ... its Saleh... O great Saleh ... that is in trouble .. in trouble indeed .....


وإذا كانت النفوس كباراً ........ تعبت في مرادها الأجساد ......

استميح العذر عن تذمري ونواحي ... فلا مفر لي سوى ... قلوب احبائي ...

someone, somewhere...

Someone, somewhere. You make me smile.
Someone, somewhere. Doesn’t know they do.

Someone, somewhere. You make it worthwhile.
Someone, somewhere. Hope you feel it too.

Someone, somewhere. Doesn’t matter who you are.
Someone, somewhere. I hope its you.

Someone, somewhere . All alone inside.
Someone, somewhere. I am there for you.

Someone, somewhere. Please don’t cry.
Someone, somewhere. I cry sometimes too.

Someone, somewhere. Don’t be ashamed.
Someone, somewhere. Because I have a secret too.

Someone, somewhere. Don’t give up.
Someone, somewhere. You will make it through.

Someone, somewhere. It will become true.
Someone, somewhere. I love you too.

Someone, somewhere. I thank you.
Not for all you have given me, but for allowing me to give you too.

Forbidden communication

being unable to communicate with the surroundings is hard to live with ...

its like you are in a glass jar, where everybody passes by ... but no-one shows any reaction to your movement ...

talking without anybody hearing you
moving without anybody watching you
being there ... without anybody noticing you ..........

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as a little baby .. i stood there .. in the world of giants ... trying to copy their moves ... looking stupid from above ... but still ... i want to draw attention ... anybody .. please .. im over here ... ya ... all the way under ... but still no body reaches to me ...

after lots of failures ... i surrendered to the fact that im not one of them ... im a tiny "thing" walking and imitating their actions ... screaming with all my voice ... and still no one hears me ...

frustrated with no hope ...

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need to communicate ... need to communicate ...